| so many mixed thoughts, emotions, ideas right now. i just hope for clarity. |
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| i'm really tired of being lied to |
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| my friend laolu killed himself the other day. as always seems to be the case i only wish i knew him better. i don't mean to seem cavalier about all of this, it's just kind of shaken me up in a very odd way. i wish i could see my friend marcus and just share with him and have him more importantly share with me. i don't know what all to say about this situation or what to feel really. laolu was one of the most beautiful souls i've ever met. i've never known anyone to just be so positive about everything... i'm just at a loss... it's really been making me think about my grandfather and how much i miss him. it makes me think about friends i don't see often enough as well and how much i miss them. how much i really cherish them as well despite boundries set by work and the band etc... i miss the road, it reminds me of how beautiful life is. |
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| apparently someone from the ellicott city area was lurking the crap out of my xanga today. you should sign in and just say hello. i'm a nice guy. promise. |
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| right now... i'm happy. things are going well. i've recieved good news tonight also. this news makes me smile a lot. makes me look forward to the days to come. |
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